A lifetime without love is a life of living hell!!

You want to live your life your own, but are you willing to pay the price? Being independent means that sometimes you have to be ready for your reputation to be bruised a little bit -- but wouldn't you rather be known as someone who occasionally breaks the rule than as someone who always does everything they are told to do? Stop making choices based on how it will make you look in the eyes of others. Just go your own way and accept the consequences.